i love being in love

Independence Day was yesterday

Wed, 05 Jul 2006 20:21:48 GMT

so last night was fun.

thanks jamie for amazingly awesome fireworks.

thanks rest of my friends for being ridiculously fun.

no thanks to the person who said you must work at 8am today.

the end.

Fri, 03 Mar 2006 15:36:03 GMT

wow. i think i forgot about this. and thats fine.

i am completely frustrated with life.

this summer i will [God willing] be going to the Congo for a couple of months. this has been a dream of mine for awhile and now if the money comes, i will get to experience it!! i hope someday i can live in Africa. and i can find an amazing man who wants to do the same. so this is good.

however people [one in particular] not being straight forward is pretty much driving me insane.

i have been really sick all week. and being sick is not only painful but extremely depressing.

i hope i feel better by tomorrow so i can have somewhat of a fun weekend.

blah. thats all.

Mon, 15 Aug 2005 06:46:50 GMT

i am so thankful for amazing friends. without them i think i would die. thanks joe for calling tonight.

sometimes people don't realize how they are impacting others lives in amazing ways.

i hope i can be a good friend like the amazing people in my life.

i miss somethings. but i'm okay. really. honestly i would be even better if i knew you were okay.

i am a little freaked out for school to start. but i am excited too, mostly for new beginnings.

Fri, 12 Aug 2005 04:23:43 GMT

jim and i broke up.

nothing feels the same. duh.

but i think i'm doing alright.

God is awesome and i can't wait for awesome things to come from what He is teaching me.

i am so glad He is entirely faithful and loves me more than anyone could ever imagine loving me.

Tue, 05 Jul 2005 18:49:34 GMT

i haven't been on here in a thousand years.

Sun, 13 Feb 2005 20:36:12 GMT

wow i dont even know.
im really sick right now.
and it sucks a whole lot.
i have broncitis and the flu.
at the same freaking time.

its kind of lonely being sick.
everyone avoids you like the plague.
and i know this is gay,
but i really just want someone to take care of me.

i feel like im falling apart.

Sun, 30 Jan 2005 21:58:33 GMT

this summer i might get an internship in poland teaching junior high and highschool students photography.

how amazing would that be?

Tue, 18 Jan 2005 22:38:14 GMT

started school today.
i like it so far...

got a job at the picture people.
craziest interview i've ever had.
but at least i got the job!!!

yesssss

Tue, 11 Jan 2005 21:40:27 GMT

ummm i applied for two photography jobs today. i hope i get at least one of them.

we will see.

i start school on the 18th. we'll see how that goes too.

im a little disappointed in dr phil today. but its cool because gilmore girls are on tonight. yeaaaah.

Wed, 15 Dec 2004 05:11:54 GMT

im a little sad.

but i cant go into it right now.

im gonna miss joe and savy and nathan and all the other wonderful people here...a lot.

this is a lot more complicated than its supposed to be.

but on a happier note....almost completely done with finals!!!

Fri, 10 Dec 2004 03:02:09 GMT

i love christmas time.

and i also love fruit loops with marshmellows.

Tue, 07 Dec 2004 01:05:31 GMT

i wish somethings weren't the way they are.

but i can't do a darn thing to change them.

i am ready to be set free.

Wed, 01 Dec 2004 22:33:07 GMT

sometimes i can be so depressing.
i need to learn to handle stress and change better.

theres a lot on my mind and i wish i had someone to talk to about it.
i hope when i move back i am better at making friends. or something.

part of the problem i think, is that i really dont want to be in college at all. so i feel trapped. i have no idea what i want to do, but this definately is not it. but i guess its good to go since its paid for. im such a brat sometimes, some people would kill to go to college for free, or at all...and i am sitting here not appreciating it at all. lame.

i need to stop being so high maintenance.
and i need to get some motivation to do something productive for once.

sometimes i watch a movie, or read a book, and its so good that all i want to do is watch a movie just like it, or watch the same one again because no movie could possibly top it.

im reading the perks of being a wallflower.
i want to read Walden next. i hope i have time over Christmas.
i love getting completely lost in a book, until last week i had forgotten what that felt like.

Wed, 01 Dec 2004 22:11:38 GMT

i feel....very strange right now.
a little disappointed. a little freaked out. a little sad.
and a lot stressed out.

i dont even know how to explain. in fact i probably wont because this doesn't concern anyone reading this.

i feel like once tomorrow is over, things will start to look okay.
but as for now i feel like im carrying a big, brick building on my shoulders.

i cant wait until all this is over and its time for christmas.

Tue, 30 Nov 2004 11:25:26 GMT

ummm im back at school.
really stressed out.
i have way way too much to do.

but thanksgiving break was sweet.
for the most part.

weird how things change.

ummmm not very many more weeks until christmas!!!

Tue, 16 Nov 2004 20:57:05 GMT

today is tuesday.
i seriously need to write my bcb paper like today. i am panicking.
im really glad im goin home on friday.
im pretty sure im going to miss savy, joe and nathan when im gone.

im pretty sure im bad at being in my family and i need to call my grandparents more.
im not going to see any of them at thanksgiving. i am a little sad about that.

this entry has no real point. kbye.

Sat, 13 Nov 2004 15:32:03 GMT

Fri, 12 Nov 2004 16:37:58 GMT

wow i have a lot on my mind. none of it really has to do with me though.
i think some people just don't know how to be good friends. and thats just fine because i am leaving this place. i think sometimes i am not a good friend. and i have plenty of regrets.

i think i've changed a lot this semester. mostly because i understand some things a lot better. spending lots of time alone sucks at times but i guess its paying off right now because i have had lots of time to think about things in my life. theres something that i want so bad to fix, but i am not sure if its broken beyond repair or not yet. i guess time will tell.

God has been lacking in my life for the past week and a half. and im sure its evident. but now i am realizing more and more how much i need Him.

i hope this weekend is good. i am goin home next weekend. yesssss.

i cant wait until savy b gets back on sunday.

Wed, 10 Nov 2004 12:06:56 GMT

i wish i could sleep more so i wouldnt wake up tired every day.
i wish it could be quiet.
but thats all im complaining about right now.

i hope today is a good day because i will be sad if its not.

my boyfriend's band played with cool hand luke last night.
i was sad i had to miss it.
but they are probably going to nashville to play with them soon.
that would tight.

9 more days until thanksgiving break!!!! yesssss!
i hope this week hurries up and brings savannah back faster.
im pretty sure i miss her.

kbye.

Fri, 05 Nov 2004 21:45:53 GMT

im pretty sure that next semester i will be a lot happier.

Mon, 01 Nov 2004 15:27:08 GMT

wow. this weekend was incredible.
everything is so much better when im with jim.
and God taught us a lot this weekend and i am so so thankful He did.

jim and i did so many awesome things. i picked him up in nashville on thursday and we went to the grand ole opry museum and the opry mills mall to look at the gibson showcase. then drove back to knoxville. on friday we went to starbucks after chapel. went to worlds fair park. drove around a beautiful cemetary. went to the river. ate at fazolis. went to a dollar movie. went back to worlds fair park and just talked. saturday we went to the mountains and had so many scary/awesome adventures. sunday i had to take him to the airport in nashville. it was hard. i hated saying goodbye. but i am glad because i will see him again soon.

today im sad because i wish jim were still here.
i feel dumb crying because most people dont think its a big deal. oh well.
i have a lot to do today but none of it is awesome at all.
except seeing savannah and joe.

thats all really.

Fri, 29 Oct 2004 03:56:36 GMT

jims here.
today was amazing.
i hope joe likes having him in his room tonight.
kbye

Mon, 25 Oct 2004 04:47:40 GMT

so i like hanging out with joe.
im glad it happened a lot this weekend.
now we have clean cars. and priceless memories. haha.

jim is coming to see to me on thursday! i cant wait.

kbye

Wed, 20 Oct 2004 13:17:31 GMT

i feel like im going insane.
i need to get away from here. i dont even care where i go.

Tue, 12 Oct 2004 21:47:50 GMT

its my birthday today.